That went fast. I blink and summer ended! It felt like this entire year zoomed by and I haven't had enough time to figure out what I am doing with my life. This question has been looming over my head ever since I started teaching a year ago. I didn't enjoy teaching and I made the bold decision to quit at the end of my first year; I don't regret my choice. Though, I do have lots of options to try.
It feels like I've walked down a straight & narrow path in the woods only to end in an open field with no more path to follow or direction to lead me to a new destination. This feeling is both liberating and terrifying at the same time! What do I do now? What do I want to do? Which path should I create next? These are questions I've never really thought about before but have taken some steps to help pull me in a direction.
With a new year starting, and resolutions soon to be too, I've created a list of things/habits I've been trying to use to help myself find my way. I hope you find some of these steps useful and applicable to your life and/or situation.
1. First: I have been an avid social media and technology user for a while. So much that I've started to find myself scrolling through social media sites for up to an hour after I wake up in the morning. My day would be filled with tasks, working, practicing and then Facebook, Twitter and Instagram shoved between. I have a pile of books on my dresser waiting to be read and tons of small projects waiting to be done, which you can probably gather not many pages have been read and the small projects are still waiting...
A few weeks ago, I decided to make a change in my usage. I deleted all social media applications from my iPhone and allow myself only 10 minutes per day to check them using my computer. I must say, a change in habit has helped me accomplish a lot more and to appreciate my time I have. Not to mention, I feel happier and less pressure to have to keep up with what is happening with friends and family online. A text or call works just as well and keeps me in contact with them on a more personal level than throwing up a status.
2. Second: Have you ever stopped and looked at the clouds? I mean really looked at them? They gently float by at a snails pace! Nature reminds me that every goal, habit, career etc... takes time and gentleness to grow, develop and move along. My weight didn't come off over night. It took small changes over time to actually see the results that I worked for. It takes time and effort to do the same with career changes and building a life.
I feel technology plays a big part in this since everything is at the touch of our fingers and is readily available anytime, not to mention technology exercises our instant gratification muscle so we find it difficult to wait for things to be accomplished and grow.
3. Third: I'm a thinker. I tend to focus a lot on what I want to do and then think my way through it instead of taking action. It feels like I'm standing and staring at the food in the Chinese Buffet and not taking a plate and trying something. With so many options presented before me, I don't know which one I want to try or where I should start first. Always questioning and trying to logically make a decision on what to eat, meanwhile I'm standing there starving instead of making a decision to eat something.
The one thing I really have been pushing to do is to act. Try. Do something. Go audition for something I really like to do. Make crazy YouTube videos to show my friends. Go out to NYC to see a show and talk to people about what I'm looking to accomplish (this is where number 2 comes in by the way). Acting on something will yield some kind of result, big or small, but if I stand looking and watching, time just keeps on ticking and I won't ever get time back.
This post is kind of sporadic; I have a lot to say! I'm trying things every day and feel there are many other people at every age going through something similar. Whether it's a job you're in that you don't like and want to get out of or a relationship that isn't working or going in a new direction.
I'm learning a lot as I go day-by-day and week-by-week about people, life, myself, my wants, goals, desires and dreams; there are many and too many to try and accomplish at once. I hope you enjoy the rest of your holiday and spend it IN PERSON with your friends and family. Have a happy new year and try new things and take risks!